some people just naturally suck, i dont like these people too much....such is life

some people just are like, argh, you just dont wanna be around them,
but i can deal with that,

and it seems that these people tend to make life exponentially harder,
i can deal with that too as well,

but its the mix of these types of people in greater numbers, thats get to me,
its seems like there all around me,

gosh, i wish i didnt have to deal with em,
i hear there issues, and i tell em what to do about it,
and they keep coming back, over and over again,
i have problems of my own that i need to deal with,
and it seems ive become there homage for there issues,

so what seemed to be a simple case of me dealing with my own issues,
has become much, much more,

i have to worry about if this person is going to sign up for classes on time,
or if this person is going to remember to pay there bills,
or if this person is depressed or not, and the list goes on and on,

its an emotional roller-coaster,
dealing with these “high maintenance” friends of mine,

geesh, i would like a break, buts its not me to do so,
i have to help em, i care, maybe a lil too much,
but i hate seeing people down,

but i know its gotten to me lately,
ive been kinda a jerk to people these last few days,

and even my doctor told me that me getting sick,
is due to stress, lol, stress?? a sickness?? who wouldve guessed it,

its interesting, cause stress, is something i thought i could handle,
i mean, it does make me somewhat a recluse if im dealing with it chronically,

so i can understand, but i figured its passive,
there are a few of my friends that i can talk to and be myself,
so its nice to vent to them, but i dont talk to them enough it seems,

see i lose close friends easily from distancing myself from them,
and i dont like making new close friends,
because of the whole bonding part,
i have proximity issues, lol, its just me though,

well, i donno what to do, but i guess itll all play out,
for now, ill pray about it, and hope for the best,
not just for me, but for everyone im trying to help,
god has his plans, and ill just have to trust in him,

i can only do so much while im here though,
im gone in another week and a half,
so lets see what i can get done here till then....
i guess i should get started