recent questions in life...

for the past few weeks i have been questioning these things a lot....

what do i want to do with my life?

why i'm still at this school?

do i still want to continue school?

why do i keep messing up in school?

why can't i keep myself from procrastinating?

why can't i be more disciplined?

why do i keep trying to help if it seems like it's going to blow up in my face?

why am i giving people soo many chances?

am i being taken advantage of?

can i really trust people again?

am i doing the right thing?

and more-so,

am i doing it for me?

i guess really the big question in all this is,

WHO AM I?

i haven't really been acting like good ol' eddie lately....

and it's been buggin me,

it might be cause there's a lot going on but still....

can i keep my composure in all this?

i guess it's sad to say that maybe not....

i've been been acting very different lately,

really for the better most of the time,

but it still scares me that i don't expect myself to think those ways,

i'm really starting to not recognizing myself anymore....

i need to define who i am again....

and hopefully find what i want....