what do i want to do with my life?
why i'm still at this school?
do i still want to continue school?
why do i keep messing up in school?
why can't i keep myself from procrastinating?
why can't i be more disciplined?
why do i keep trying to help if it seems like it's going to blow up in my face?
why am i giving people soo many chances?
am i being taken advantage of?
can i really trust people again?
am i doing the right thing?
and more-so,
am i doing it for me?
i guess really the big question in all this is,
WHO AM I?
i haven't really been acting like good ol' eddie lately....
and it's been buggin me,
it might be cause there's a lot going on but still....
can i keep my composure in all this?
i guess it's sad to say that maybe not....
i've been been acting very different lately,
really for the better most of the time,
but it still scares me that i don't expect myself to think those ways,
i'm really starting to not recognizing myself anymore....
i need to define who i am again....
and hopefully find what i want....
